Noah

Today we are celebrating 2 years since Noah's birth. It is hard to believe that he would be two years old, though I am reminded of that often. We wish he was here to hold... to watch grow.

Nearly 2 years have passed since his death and we have learned to live a "normal" life... which we once thought would never be possible. Most days we continue on but every now and again the darkness of being left behind creeps in. Last night was like that for us. Thinking back to Noah's life and death we were overtaken by grief once again. My thoughts went back to the morning after he died when Jonathan rolled over sleepily and asked "where are the boys?" How I wish that we could again say "the boys."

Today we are celebrating. Celebrating Noah's life. It's a day when we refuse to ask "why?" and "what if?" It's a day dedicated to him, the memories we share, and the time we had. So far today we made birthday pancakes and went out for ice cream.

I just want to say a special thanks to those who have phoned, e-mailed, sent cards, and given gifts. Your words and encouragement mean a lot to us. We appreciate every acknowledgement of Noah and what his life meant to you.

February 8- March 6 is a bit of a time of vigil for us. We like to keep white roses around during this time as a symbol of Noah's life that lives on. If you feel a sadness in your heart this time of year we would encourage you to do the same. And if you ever just want to say "we remember" but can't find the words... a white rose is a symbol of that for us.