Sunday, April 27, 2008


This morning while David was out with Grammy I was sorting through his bottles to see which ones have been recalled. I still had the container out when he got home and he found a soother. He ran away from me knowing I was going to take it away and cried when I did. So I decided to let him have it until he forgot about it and then I hid it. A little relapse but all in all giving up the "plug" has been going well.

Last night we had Raclette for dinner with some of our friends. It was even better then I remembered and though my diet suffered I have no regrets. David came with us and decided to play Picasso with our friends living room wall, thankfully they were washable crayons (sorry, no picture). We had a nice evening though we had to end it sooner then we liked because Jonathan had to work at 5am this morning and he is currently suffering with vertigo (though it is getting better). Along with that news Jonathan is starting a new job in a few weeks at a store closer to home.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Big Step for David

Yesterday David said good-bye to soothers. Not by choice but he has gotten to the point where he bites through them in one day and we don't want to spend 25$ on soothers every week. So he had to quit "cold turkey." This resulted in no nap yesterday which resulted in a 6pm bed time but much to our surprise he slept great! Turns out giving up soothers wasn't the nightmare I thought it would be. Yeah for David! I guess potty training comes next but I am not quite ready. I had him on the potty for 20 minutes the other day and he pooped and peed in his underwear within 2 minutes of coming off. But soon we have to step up to the challenge. This morning we are off to moms and tots.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

David Brent Robert

Last night David was whining while I was trying to clean up so I decided to let him help me with the dishes. As soon as I put him on the counter he was happy. He ate a few suds and had a great time helping mommy... he didn't even make a mess which was nice.
David had whipping cream twice in the last week and a half. First when his friend Natalie came for a play date (we had waffles, strawberries and whipping cream) and then when daddy made cream puffs for bible study snack. He loves whipping cream and I always let him lick the beaters, I remember enjoying that when I was a child. I also thought I would feature a picture of David in his duck house coat. He loves it and he loves the matching slippers too.
He hasn't been sleeping well the last few nights. One night I think he was having night terrors which I also had as a child but I am not sure what is causing it the rest of the time. Jonathan and I are both really tired as a result of it. I am tired of blaming it on teething though he is still working on his molars. He isn't talking much more but continues to surprise us once and a while. The other day he was watching tv and I asked him if he wanted some plum and he said "I'll see." CUTE!

Friday, April 18, 2008

Last night I sent in our testimony for the NILMDTS website. Once it is reviewed it will be added to their site.

When we were 21 weeks pregnant with Noah we discovered through amnio that he had an extra 13th chromosome and that he was not expected to survive the rest of our pregnancy, or long after birth. I cannot explain in words the grief we faced in the weeks and months that followed. We didn't know if we would get to meet our beloved son before he left this world. A friend heard our sad news and told us about NILMDTS. We contacted our photographer Jane who suggested we take some pregnancy pictures to capture moments when our son was still with us. Having these memories helped comfort us during the uncertain days ahead. February 8th, 2008 Noah arrived and Jane was there to capture our first hours with him. He surprised the doctors with his health and we cherished 28 beautiful days with him before he left for Heaven. Though we wish everyday that he was still in our arms we are so thankful for the many pictures of our sweet baby boy that we have to cherish until we meet him again.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Happy Engagement

On this day three years ago this young man decided to 'pop the question' to this lovely young women. Looking forward to celebrating three married years together in October. Here is one of our Engagement pictures taken at Mill Lake, April 2005.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Absolutely Needed

Friday I went to the Absolute Spa with Mom and Lauren to celebrate all of our birthdays (Thanks Mom and Dad). I had a manicure and the Hawaiian Lomi Lomi Massage. I was looking forward to the massage but didn't know how tense I was until she started. My muscles are all very stressed. I didn't realize how much emotional stress also affects us physically. I think Jonathan and I are going to try to go for another massage soon. It was really nice to be able to completely relax for a few hours.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

We are all Canucks!

Last night Jonathan and I went to the Canucks game. We were hoping they would still be in the running for the playoffs but we were still happy to be going to a game. If you watched the game last night (and even if you didn't) you know how bad we lost (6-1). That part wasn't so great but what was really neat was it is rumoured to be Trevor Linden's last game. Whether this is the case or not the fans gave him tremendous support including several standing ovations with enthusiastic applause. There were lots of Linden jerseys on the backs of fans and various signs of love, support and encouragement. I don't watch many games throughout regular season but I do remember watching Trevor Linden and the Canucks in the playoffs when I was in grade 5 and I know he was a Canuck even before that. Last night was fan appreciation night and both Jonathan and I were hoping to win his jersey. We didn't end up winning anything but we were glad to be part of the 215th consecutive sell out. Let's look forward to next years season and hopefully play offs.

Here is our big boy David in his big boy bed. We had to take down his crib in the middle of March and I have been meaning to post pics of him in his new bed for a while. These pics were taken during his nap on Friday while he was cuddled up with Backyardigan Tyrone. Lately he has been full of kisses and this morning after kissing Jonathan and I while we were still in bed he brought me cherios. My first breakfast in bed... so cute! He likes to share... even when we don't want him too and gets quite upset if we don't take what he is offering. We are just waiting for him to start saying "Why?"... he is currently saying "What is it?" a lot!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Dear Noah,

It has been four weeks since we said good-bye. I know it wasn't easy for you either. You fought to catch one more breath, and one more again so that we could hold you longer. Thank you for being so brave. Somehow we found the strength to say "it's okay" instead of "Noah, please breath!" We knew you were only fighting for us and that it was your time to leave your Mama and Daddy and go home to your Father. Though only a Babe I think you knew just as we did that it was time.

The "Why's" and "What if's" still plague us in our sadness. We can't help missing you, you are part of us. Each morning we wake up and each day we put one foot in front of the other just as you would want us to... just as we would have wanted you to if it would have been our time not yours. My arms ach for you... my eyes tear and my heart continues to break.

If you are a grown man when we get to Heaven will you mind if we rock you? Will you say "It's okay Mama... you're home now... I've been waiting for you." That seems like so far away. We are sending you our love, our hugs, and our kisses everyday. We miss taking care of you... our sweet baby boy.

I am trying more and more to smile as I remember you rather then cry. I remember taking you to the doctor when you were 5 days old. You sucked on my finger while they checked your heart. Then we went for lunch at the cafeteria your daddy and me. I carried you proudly in my arms and everyone around asked how old you were and said you were adorable. You made us so happy during your time here on earth, while you were in my belly and especially once you were in my arms. Every tear we cry is worth the joy you have given us. So if you can see me from Heaven and you are saying "Don't cry Mama" know that my tears are only wishes that you were still here. I'll love you forever.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Close to My Heart

For Noah's birth and for my birthday Jonathan bought me this locket and chain. While I was on the Island he made the pictures for me to put in the locket and today I cut them out and put them in. Now I can carry Noah's pictures with me close to my heart. Thank you Jonathan! Here are the pictures I have chosen...